and I heard an unending scream piercing nature.
—from the diary of Edvard Munch, 1892
At the greyhound bus stations, at airports, at silent wharfs
the bodies exit the crafts. Women, men, children; cast out
from the new paradise.
They are not there in the homeland, in Argentina, not there
in Santiago, Chile; never there in Montevideo, Uruguay,
and they are not here
in America
They are in exile: a slow scream across a yellow bridge
the jaws stretched, widening, the eyes multiplied into blood
orbits, torn, whirling, spilling between two slopes; the sea, black,
swallowing all prayers, shadeless. Only tall faceless figures
of pain flutter across the bridge. They pace in charred suits,
the hands lift, point and ache and fly at sunset as cold dark
birds. They will hover over the dead ones: a family shattered
by military, buried by hunger, asleep now with the eyes burning
echoes calling Joaquín, María, Andrea, Joaquín, Joaquín, Andrea,
en exilio
From here we see them, we are the ones from here, not there or across,
only here, without the bridge, without the arms as blue liquid
quenching the secret thirst of unmarked graves, without
our flesh journeying refuge or pilgrimage; not passengers
on imaginary ships sailing between reef and sky, we that die
here awake on Harrison Street, on Excelsior Avenue clutching
the tenderness of chrome radios, whispering to the saints
in supermarkets, motionless in the chasms of playgrounds,
searching at 9 am from our third floor cells, bowing mute,
shoving the curtains with trembling speckled brown hands. Alone,
we look out to the wires, the summer, to the newspapers wound
in knots as matches for tenements. We that look out from
our miniature vestibules, peering out from our old clothes,
the father’s well-sewn plaid shirt pocket, an old woman’s
oversized wool sweater peering out from the makeshift kitchen.
We peer out to the streets, to the parades, we the ones from here
not there or across, from here, only here. Where is our exile?
Who has taken it?
Juan Felipe Herrera (b. 1948) b. Fowler, CA, to migrant farmers. Spent his years growing up moving throughout the San Joaquin and Salinas Valleys. Received BA in Anthropology at the University of California, Los Angeles, through the Educational Opportunity Program, an MA from Stanford University, and an MFA from the University of Iowa Writers’ Workshop. Led a trip through Mexico with fellow Chicano artists, which greatly influenced his poetry. Publications include the novel-in-verse Crashboomlove (1999), which received the Americas Award; the poetry collections 187 Reasons Mexicans Can’t Cross the Border: Undocuments 1971–2007 (2007), Half of the World in Light: New and Selected Poems (2008), and Every Day We Get More Illegal (2020); and the children’s book Jabberwalking (2018), which won an International Latino Book Award. Has taught Chicano and Latin American studies and creative writing at California State University, Fresno, and University of California, Riverside. Holds honorary doctorate from California State University. His visual art has been featured in the Monterey Museum of Art. Recipient of a Latino Hall of Fame Award, he was also California’s Poet Laureate, 2012–15, and U.S. Poet Laureate, 2015–17.